Thursday, September 6, 2012

Fear of "speaking out"

If you follow me on here, you've probably seen where I'm a small group leader this semester in FCA. During the first few weeks we've been getting our girls, attempting to find a time that works for everyone, and then dividing them up between my co-leader and I.  

We met last night and a lot of girls couldn't make it for different reasons but it was basically a time for us to hang out and get to know the few girls who were able to come.

Next week, however, is the (for some) dreaded event of sharing testimonies.  

Sharing testimonies is where each girl gives a little bit about herself, past-present-future, and a little about her walk with the Lord and how she came into a relationship with him.  

My co-leader and I agreed that this was a wonderful way to break the ice (the first "serious" time that we'll share together) and will open up the doors for possible topics and prayer requests for the group in the future.  

To some this is a chance to really get stuff off your chest, because for some we've never told our story of how we met Jesus. To others, this is a time of pure panic.

"What will the girls think of me?" "Is my story relevant?" "Can I do this?"

Public speaking is never fun, talking about personal issues is rarely fun.  But I think it's important to remember that our testimony is written by the Lord, and therefore nothing to be ashamed of.  

Psalm 139: 1-4 You have searched me, Lord, and you know me.  You know when I sit and when I rise;  you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.  Before a word is on my tongue you, Lord, know it completely. 
There is no "wrong" way to tell people about how you met the Lord, that story has been written for you.  There is no editing, no rehearsing, no one (besides the Lord) knows you better than you. So I'm not sure who this post was meant for, but always be willing to tell people about Jesus, they may need to hear it, and it may need to be from you.

Don't ever think you're story isn't good enough, or relevant.  Because God made you in his image, and sent his son for our sins.  His grace and his mercy are always, and will always be enough.  

"We are his portion and He is our prize."


  1. Love this post! And we are both from Greenville!!


  2. Thank you! And good ole' Greenville, it's the best (I may be slightly biased...) and I love love LOVE your blog!